Ah! The stress of envionsioning the future of my next 6 months is reminiscent of all the nightmares that have been plaguing me in the last 6 months. I guess I'm coming full circle and they are all coming to reality.

Truly that sucks some big bag of pure ass. Oddly enough my work has not been affected, in fact you could say I've been getting better and building a reputation for myself, a good one, for once. I'll be getting keys, meaning I'm next in line for Manager In Training (MIT). That's swell, at least the paycheck will be. Having to survive by any means possible is changing me. A year ago this would have been paralyzingly terrorising. Today, I can only go forwards, and still try to forge on for my dreams.

At least I would have known that even though I haven't succeeded at making some of my childhood dreams come true, I tried and found new ones along the way. And for once this doesn't even sound like a hill of bullshit.