I cannot begin to say how sadly disapointed in your love I am. You cannot face the truths of yourself and when I call you on it, you slash me to pieces with words and refuse to ever see me again or reply to any more messages.

I spoke truth and obviously your mind knows, but it rebels against it and now you've shut me out again. I've come to the decision that I am quite done with you. I am shutting the door of my heart on both you and my other love. It's time to open myself to possibilities I haven't encountered yet.

I often wonder what the point of living is when there's a cost to it. How can anyone put a price on your basic right to live? But that is why they educate us, to make sure we can make a living and contribute to this grand tribe. However corrupt it is, it is still our way of living, and one can only change it by being an active part of it. It took me many years to understand this, even after so many tried make me see. Now I understand, and I hope against your wish of dying, fleeing, that you come to this same conclusion.