I realize you'll probably delete this on sight. But I did want to let you know nothing I said was meant to hurt you.

I do understand your reaction, I've done the same faced with these seeming accusations, even though people just wanted to help me. I really do want you to realize certain things, you do need to dig deeper in your depression, and to know that you have value simply because of who you are, and not because you are any better or worse than anyone else.

I may have been angry when I last replied, but I am allowed to express anger and I thought you should know. As my friend I would have hoped you would have been understanding or forgiving.

But you may not be able to be so right now. Maybe even never...

Goodbye, I wish your last words hadn't been so painful, but I did hurt you, even if it wasn't the intention. Should I send this? I will, of course I will. But I'll preserve it too, to remind me why we don't speak and why I can't contact you again.

I guess this is more for me than for you. Unless you do read this...

We hurt those we love, and sometimes we smack the truth on them to try to save them, because we love them so. You don't want any of this, but didn't you crave it?

I'll try to 'send' someone else that may be more successful than I could be. Even though you'd refuse my attention, my pain, my cares I'll still be with you. I can't escape it.

May light find you.